I wasn't going to write anything resembling a 2025 recap this time around, but then I saw that 32-Bit Cafe were doing an end-of-the-year event again and thought: what the hell, sure. Yeah, I'm that easy to sway!

The reason I wasn’t going to write a recap/wrap-up and the reason I haven’t updated my site and blog since autumn – hi there, by the way, it’s been a minute! – is because my mental health has been Pretty Bad in the last few months of 2025. My site (#mysite :)) was always supposed to be a happy corner for me so I wanted to keep my doomerism (which had reached astronomical levels by that point, I’m afraid) off it as much as possible, and thus I didn’t write any blog posts – and I wasn’t in the mood to do other site-related things either.

The prompt for this year’s event is to write a blog post (or create a page) that “explores a reflection on past decisions (good or bad), or brainstorms / shares plans for the future”. I’m gonna touch on some other things in this post too, but as per our prompt, I’ll try to think of some of the decisions I made last year and write them into a recap. Which sounds a bit strange because on the one hand, everything is a result of a decision made at some point in the past, but on the other hand, I don’t think I made that many crucial decisions last year that are worth talking about. Most of 2025 really was just about survival.

Well, here’s a decision that had been a long time coming and that I finally did something about at the end of 2025: I went back into therapy! I have a new therapist! It’s very much early days still, but I like him. And he’s had experience working with neurodivergent people (and I think he’s neurodivergent himself) so yay for that! I’m cautiously optimistic.

A minor decision that stuck with me last year was when I decided to go to a Halloween event alone. I generally don’t have a problem going places alone, I never have, but at that point I was feeling quite lonely because I didn’t have close friends in my city and all the acquaintances graciously declined my invitation so I wasn’t sure if I wanted to go. I did, though, and I even dressed up for the occasion, and it went great!

I also decided to try writing fic with the actual intention of posting it. It’s been quite hard to stick to that decision (because, you see, everything I write has to be perfect and it has to be perfect IMMEDIATELY or else I deserve to Die the Death) but I plan to keep at it. Hopefully, some of what I’ve written will actually see the light of day in 2026.

Oh, I just remembered: I also tried grilled eel last year! It deserves to be on this list because it’s a big one for us ARFID (avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder) girlies! The texture was… interesting, but not disgusting. One more menu item added to my repertoire!

Other things that seem worth mentioning in an end-of-year wrap-up:

✿ I had endo surgery and had been dealing with those issues for the better part of the year.

✿ I did some amateur dramatics, which I greatly enjoyed. It's true that I didn't do much of anything in 2025, but it will actually do me good to remember it was partly because I was engrossed in doing live theatre, however small. So I *was* doing something!

✿ Oh! I turned thirty last year! I forgor :) But all the well-meaning relatives whose birthday wishes included finding a man and having a baby asap sure didn't!

✿ Can’t say it was a particularly good reading year, but I did read some books! I keep trying to read my massive physical TBR instead of buying more books or reading ebooks. I fell off that a bit towards the end of the year, unfortunately, but I still made a dent in that TBR (and am about to unhaul some of the books I read).

✿ I didn’t watch a lot of movies (I’ve been a retired cinephile for years now, unfortunately), but I did watch some iconic ones!

✿ Hyperfixation of the year goes to: The Wheel of Time show, struck down in its prime, gone but not forgotten. I can still hear her voice. Hyperfixation of the year runner-up: All Creatures Great and Small (2020 show). I did watch other shows, but these two defined the year for me and they just happened to turn into full-on hyperfixations. Wild how those just happen without your interference when you least expect it!

Now, for the second theme of this year’s event. At this point making any kind of real-life plans or resolutions feels like tempting fate, so I thought I’d make a little list of immediate-ish things I wanna do around the site and hope none of this sets off my demand avoidance.

That's all, folks!